Why do I study

Everyday i wake up with a sigh..

"Do I really have to study today?"

Its like a routine for me to remind myself everyday that this is the path i have chosen and i have no choice but to devote myself to reaching my goal.. devote? using such a big word as one way to set my mind.. *sigh*

I was in a conversation with a few of my friends yesterday, and th

e topic on why do we want to be a doctor came up.. (what else are there to talk about btwn medic students) anyway, most of them a

re doing it because of the money, n when i voiced out that I'm not doing it because of the money but because i can help people, they laughed..

Frankly, both of the reasons are not really true.. I'm not that noble or a mother Theresa wannabe.. i wanna do it because i wanna prove to everyone that I can reach my goal and make my lifelong dream come true..

But it gets harder everytime you fall.. I fall and fall again, and each time its get harder and harder to pull myself up.. I tell myself everyday that i am meant to this..but how do you keep on brain-washing your mind when

deep down inside you don't even believe that its true.

*sigh*

good morning world n hello books

*sigh*